Psychic Energy and The Meaning of Life

Fickle. Frustrated. Fed up. Freaking Out.

Was drawn into Alain Nu's show on TLC last night. He's an awesome metal bender. I enjoyed his presentation of "mission" and "purpose" -- strong belief in forces beyond influencing the here and now -- or so he thinks. His ambivilence was very refreshing, if you waited long enough to hear him say so (with a little sparkle in his eye).

Not that I believed it at all -- just that he took me a little further down the road and made me enjoy the knowing that there is a few things that we have yet to explain.

For me, the meaning of life is becoming much more than just paying my bills. It is becoming the quest for true significance and impact. Being able to make every breath count. Every step taken is a step closer to the goal. Having my eyes firmly fixed on the author and perfecter of my faith.

Lord, give me eyes to see.

Always Winter...Never Spring

I love the "conversion" of the Land of Narnia that occurs when Aslan the Lion overcomes the power of the White Witch. The frozen land thawed. The petrified animals were revived. Narnia was once again ALIVE!

I often feel that my life is in an "always winter and never spring" modality. I feel constrained by my workday, stymied by my finances, burdened by the burdens of others around me. It just kinda sucks.

But...

There is a Deeper Magic from before the Dawn of Time:

"It means," said Aslan, "that though the White Witch knew the Deep Magic, there is a magic deeper still that she did not know. Her knowledge goes back only to the dawn of time. But if she could have looked a little further back, into the stillness and the darkness before Time dawned, she would have read there a different incantation. She would have known that when a willing victim who had committed no treachery was killed in a traitor's stead, the Table would crack and death itself would start working backwards."

Transfer now from fantasy to reality...

Is not the same true for me and my existance? Is there not a deeper magic that applies to my life? Something greater than magic tricks and a "feel good" mentality. Yes, I know there is. Yes, I believe there is my Aslan, who is known by another name -- Jesus. It's not a mystery -- just mysterious. Not a wonder -- just wonderful. Not a fierce -- just fierocious.

Did I mention that He is not tame?

No longer our of body -- still out of my mind...

Out of My Body - Out of My Mind

So I was a little panicky last Friday. If you were walking in my shoes, you'd understand why.

But now it's a new day of a new week of another chance to completely screw up my life and those around me. With one big difference... This time I'm not going to be responsible for anything that happens. Really! It's simple.

1) I am going to approach everything (person, situation, problem, etc.) with a Zen-like disconnect. I will be literally "out-of-body" floating outside myself "watching" everything happen around me (or at least the body that I've stepped out of). So, if I yell at people, forget to go to important meetings, shoplift a package of chewing gum, etc., I will not be actually responsible for the actions because "I'm" not really doing it. It's just the shell of my body. It's not my fault!

2) When someone questions my actions, my body (speaking in a very disconnected sort of voice) will simply explain that whole thing and walk away. It's a perfectly consistant response -- "I didn't do that. It was just my body. I am out of my body."

Some would say that I've lost my mind, but I would take issue with them. Out of my mind is really a better way to put it.

Stay tuned. I'll probably be reporting from the local jail in my next installment.

Distantly connected --

OK, I'm Lost

Was looking at the title of this Blog and realized...Hey, I'm wandering and I AM LOST!

What the heck am I supposed to do, now?

Mysteries of Life

I've always thought of myself as a bit of the "philosopher." Most of my conclusions are pretty convoluted and would only make sense to an alien visitor, but that's another story... (Do the terms "alternate reality" and "chupacabra" mean anything to you?)

It is amazing to me how wrapped up we get in the moment by moment, whining and complaining about this minutia, while missing the big picture -- the BIG story. Come on, people...It is appointed unto men once to die and then comes judgment.

The biggest mystery of life is that we all will die. Pretty much a sure thing; a done deal.

A close second to that is the simple fact that we are mainly water, carbon, and a mixture of other stuff lifeforms that think and feel and emote and the like. There is micro-electical currents pushing through our nervous systems, powering our vital organs, our conversion of carbs into energy, convert oxygen into carbon di-oxide. Every breath represents a virtual metamorphosis of animation.

We think, therefore we are. We breathe, therefore we be. We die, therefore we live.

I am faced with a choice -- to live or to die.

Live!